It is shameful, sad, and freeing all at the same time. I need to go to good will my next check and find cheap jeans and leggings I can wear because as of now I have 3 jeans that truly fit me. But I just am not comfortable in them and I cannot keep pretending I am. Getting rid of these clothes was the hardest thing ever because I do like the jeans and some were my favorite. I do not spend money on clothes at all so when I do it feels so painful because I grew up poor and we always shopped long hours to look for deals and clearance items. But it didnt matter because i was still able to zip up my pants. But they were so uncomfortable to sit in and do everyday chores in. I kept these clothes because I could squeeze my body into them. I have finally admitted to myself that I no longer fit into these clothes after gaining back half of the weight I lost. I feel so much better now that I don't have the weight of that clutter on my mind. I'm feeling only a slight bit of regret but that's normal and I know that I'd have never used that piano again and maybe now, some other little kid's parents will be able to afford to buy them their first keyboard. Seriously, when I pulled it out yesterday to take it to sell I had to do a lot of dusting and cleaning just to make it presentable. I got a new one for my birthday last year and the old one has just sat in storage or under my bed for years. Well, I just sold my second round of books yesterday! I also sold the one thing I'd never thought I'd be able to part with, my very first electronic keyboard that my dad bought me 17 years ago. I tried to take some books to sell a few years ago but had a panic attack so bad that I took all them back and didn't accept the money. I have severe OCD and getting rid of stuff has always caused me a lot of stress.

Seriously, I'm nearly 30 and I've almost never gotten rid of anything.

My parent (their child) eventually grew up and definitely inherited some of their tendencies (not the filth or trash hoarding but definitely the hoarding of things and stuff) and then that parent has unintentionally passed them on to me in the way that they've modeled behavior to me when I was a kid. My grandparents were the classic kind of hoarders whose house was filthy and eventually their house was condemed by the city.

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